Number 7: It's a difficult balance

I just watched a few videos on Steinhardt's website about my program. One of my best-ies texted me about what a great time he's having visiting NYC. I should be ecstatic, and I am. Scoring is what I want to do more than anything else in this world and I love the city...but I can't seem to stay excited. The stress is overwhelming. I need a job. Now. And this whole commuting thing is incredibly inconvenient and difficult, not to mention expensive and kind of defeating. To be so close to your dream but not be able to completely fulfill it right now is horribly crippling. I need a job, I need an apt, but I have neither and it's still going to take a lot of hard work to get either. All the while I still want to be absolutely focused on my goal, my program. I want to excel and really make it happen but it's hard when everything else is in the way, taking up your time, stealing your joy.